CISD – Critical Incident Stress Debriefing
OK GO – A band
When we get in stressful situations in fire and EMS we have a tendency to assume that being macho and “sucking it up” is the right thing to do. Nothing could be further from the truth. I speak from experience on this folks.
Fancy programs exist in some Departments for you to talk about what’s bothering you, but some don’t have much of a support group. In my experience some of these programs are a bit intimidating, swooping in and asking us how we feel.
I don’t want to tell you how I feel. I want to just forget what happened and move on. We don’t understand just how damaged we really are yet. I know these folks have a lot of training in talking to folks suffering from a traumatic incident, but when I first reached out I felt almost smothered.
Friends and family would call me while lying on the couch wondering if my head was bleeding on the inside and ask how I felt, how I was doing. How am I doing? A fracking ceiling fell on me and I’m on a host of meds and I can’t have caffeine or alcohol! I want to scream but am afraid the ringing in my ear will only get worse! We get angry, upset, confused and begin to push away. Every person I talked to wanted to ask me how I feel.
This is my response:
Just leave me alone. Don’t ask me how I feel. Quit acting so friendly…
The lyrics to this song fit so perfectly with how I felt soon after my injury that every time I hear this song I flash back to 2007 and wish I could make this the answering machine message.
Next we’ll cover what happens when we push everyone away and start to buy into the BS line that whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Well, at least not right away. We are not Invincible.